Voice

Voices chattering, roaming about

Arguing to "Do this!"  "Do that!"

Screaming in reply "Im in control!"

Struggling and fighting to keep control

Losing a losing battle.

Coming forward one emerges, taking over

slipping to the background, no control.

Screaming, yelling, not being heard.

Being pushed in a box, lid closed

no breathing holes to survive.

Dieing yet not an option, Torture with no pain

to fell pain one possess the body

Pushing the box, needing light, control.

pushed further back to darkness, away.

Far and away,  weeping inside just a soul.

Soundless, dreamless sleep, unknowing any

outcome.  Days, weeks, months fly by,

or do they?  Time means nothing here.

Today has no tomorrow, Yesterday doesn't exist.

No seasons, no months and no holidays.

Voices appear and taunt and tease.  Scratching,

scraping, inflicting pain, just because.

"Time to wake up!"  "Rise and shine!" "You're

needed!" Prodding, pinching, punching and kicking.

Fist rubbing eyes, sleeping eyes, soul awakens.

Voices yelling "Move it!" "GO!" "Stop lagging!"

Tugging my soul and Tugging my mind. Forcing 

to step forward.  Fingers stretch and soul electrifies.

Being thrusted forward into the mind, taking over

control. Blinking, unaware of surrounding.

The yelling and the screaming, Arguing about to

"Wake up!" "Move!" "GO!" blinking and seeing 

light.  Boggled and confused, dazed and lost.

"Oh am I awake? What am I doing? Why?"

Looking about, need a barring, a compass.

Myself, me, not we.  This is not a joint project.

I want control of me.  No more sharing.

"But mother says we must share!"

Not everything I have is to share! I share 

myself everyday! Not a minute alone.

Every thought I ever had, never to myself.

Nothing sacred, nothing of mine to hold, ever.

Is it too much to ask? To have my own mind?

Make my own decisions?  To know what day 

it is?  To be my own life?

They move to the background.  A moment of true

silence.  Panic, fear, loneliness... What is this strange

feeling?  Total silence.  I cannot do this alone!  It is

too scary out there! What do I do?!  Where will I go?

How will I manage? I am sorry.

The voices answer back "We will never leave you. Appreciate us."